BLaCk SoUL™’s Blog

it’s been 3 months since the last time a post a blog on my site, many challenges and fun moments happened during that time, my knew me for being EMO before, but now, they saw me a NEW PERSON, that has greater dignity and strength.

at first, i really don’t want to have a transformation, because i think it would be “SUCKY” and many people especially my batch mates would laugh at me, but i was wrong, when i had my haircut (because before i have bangs), my classmates said that i look better

i wanna show you my pic,,,

(does it really look good?)

anyways i just want you to see what do i look like after 3 months

well that’s all for now, take care guys!

WHEW! It’s been a long time since the last blog that I posted here on my account, I really missed “blogging” and I miss the days that I share a lot of stories with you, anyways… I just want you to know that I finished my SOPHOMORE LIFE! it’s stressful and faced a lot of pressure (TEACHERS)… and about my phone… ahahaha it’s funny coz i didn’t have the kind of phone that i really like, but it’s okay as long as i can call and send text messages to my friends. last 5 months ago… there are a lot of happenings that happened in my life… last january my grandmother was sent to the hospital because of mild stroke and I was the one who looks after her for 3 weeks… (AWWE) finally she’s back home and still continues to have her medication, I usually feed her by the tube that is connected through her nose to her stomach, it’s very unusual to look at, but i know thats the consequences that she encountered because of being hard-headed about her health. last february, we all celebrated the so called “VALENTINES DAY”, in our school there’s a lot of booth that are placed like request a song booth, chocolate booth, flower,teddy and message booth, whew there are a lot of booths!!! ahahahahaha but the awkward part is I DON’T HAVE A DATE…. when i and my friends are walking along the booths, i saw a the flower,teddy and message booth, i decided to buy one and requested to the vendor to give it to my ex-crush, after that it’s been given to given to her, my ex-crush just like accepted it, and just like ignored it maybe she knew that i have feelings for her, and my heart just like, you know! BROKEN INTO PIECES… but it’s okay… I MOVED ON ALREADY, I DONT HAVE FEELINGS FOR HER ANYMORE, this march, we had our GRADUATION AND RECOGNITION, it’s been very emotional because it was the last day for our SENIORS… (WE MISS THEM). they walked on the RED CARPET with their very special gowns and coats and looked very beautiful and handsome people. this day i had a star tattoo on my neck, today was very tiring because we had a lot of activities that we joined but the good thing about is we ALL ENJOYED… here are some of my pictures to let you see what i’m really talking about….

How can i decide what’s right? 
When you’re clouding up my mind, 
I can’t win your losing fight, 
All the time. 

How can i ever own whats mine? 
When your always taking sides, 
But you wont take away my pride, 
No not this time… 
Not this time. 

How did we get here? 
I used to know you so well, 
How did we get here? 
I think i know how. 

The truth is hiding in your eyes,

 
And it’s hanging on your tongue, 
Just boiling in my blood, 

But you think that i cant see. 
What kind of man that you are? 
If your man at all, 
I will figure this one out. 
On my own… 
(Screaming i love you so) 
On my own… 
(My thoughts you cant decode) 

How did we get here? 
I used to know you so well, 
How did we get here? 
I think i know how. 

Do you see, 
What weve done, 
Were gonna make such fools, 
Of ourselves… 
Do you see, 
What weve done, 
Were gonna make such fools, 
Of ourselves… 
YEAH 

How did we get here 
I used to know you so well 
Yeah Yeah Yeah 
How did we get here? 
I use to know you so well 
I think i know… 
I think i know… 

There is something, 
I see in you, 
It might kill me, 
I want it to be true

i remember the times that we spent together, i remember you used to call me, and ask if I’m alright, i remember the times you comfort me, it’s like we are the only the ones living here on this planet, i love the way your eyes deceive me, i love the things you are doing to me, i love every part of you, because you are my ONE AND ONLY YOU…

Woot!!!! Hehehehehe i’m back once again! Wee! I’m just going to share a story about two boys who were having a bottle fight during cantata practices…hehehehe. one boy is a rocker and the other is an emo…

Well, it all started when the rocker boy, started to hit the emo boy in his shoulders, then the emo boy said to the rocker boy to give him the bottle. When the emo boy got the bottle, he started to hit “rocker boy” the bottle very hard straight to the head…

The rocker boy looked on the emo boy and got another bottle, they hit each other as bad as they can… hahahahaha good thing the bottle of the emo boy has water in it, that’s why it’s heavier and gives it hard effect.

When the rocker got hit so bad he tried for revenge, but unfortunately the emo boy, has these techniques to overcome the attack.. hahahahaha (woot! Attack) haahahahaha, after attacking each other, rocker boy unfortunately dropped his bottle… hehehehehe

Well, its a good advantage for the emo boy now because his enemy has no weapons anymore to attacked him, the emo boy got the two bottles and started hitting the rocker boy in the head… hehehehe… then the rocker boy got hit so bad that he grabbed the head of the emo and tried to perform a headlock.. (well, actually it sucks… it doesn’t even hurt.. hahahahaha)

After that, the rocker got tired because he got no weapons anymore… that’s the time he gave up and declared surrender! Hehehehe and after the fight the two boys laughed and laughed until they got bored again…

Then, the rocker said to the emo boy that he wanted a rematch for the bottle fight…(it seems “hindi na sya nadala…”) hahahahaha then the emo boy laughed. Then said “sige ba!” hinahamon mo ako?!?!? Then the rocker laughed and said.. “bukas nalang ulit… magdadala na ako ng bakal at tubo! Hehehehehehehe

Then the emo boy said: AND THE EMO WON!!!!!

They both laughed and the good part there is… I AM THE EMO BOY IN THE STORY, and my friend BRUCE GAJES is the rocker boy… hehehehehe. It seems very unusual for a rocker and an emo to be friends, but in some factors we have both likes… and that is to HEADBANG!!!!! HEHEHEHEHEH

Well, that’s all for now… till next time..

shoot!!! this is so not good

i have bad news and good news for you my friends

well…

for today…

let’s start with the SUPER BAD NEWS

it’s about my cellphone…

can you believe this?

it got stolen!!!!

it happened just this last saturday of the month!

waaaaaah!!!

I really hate it…

all my contacts there on my phone are very important

and i really need it badly

i don’t know if i will consider this TRAGEDY a BLESSING IN DISGUISE!

because after that phone is with me for 3 years already and I never changed it,

but of course all of us wants a NEW PHONE!!!

hehehehehe

and i VERY FEEL BAD about it because, all my VAIN photos were there,

and it’s a MAJOR SECRET…. haizzz

well…

lets just say goodbye to 

SONY ERICSSON K300i

and say hello to

SONY ERICSSON K800i

wee!!

I LOVE THIS PHONE!!

HEHEHEHEHE

well thats all for now…

my point here is….

if you are going out to research and make your project

always hold your phone and never let it go

hahahahahaha

that’s all for now

wee!!

I enjoyed this day because

me and my friend Stef

went out to hang-out

actually…

we didn’t expect that my ULTIMATE SECRET CRUSH IS THERE!

then…

Stef accidentally

shouted out

“ui! Darryll! ayun ung crush mo oh!”

we know that’s normal

but the worst is…

she shouted it in FRONT OF MY CRUSH…

whew…

now my crush knows that I have a crush on her…

that’s very shameful on my part

coz… we knew each other for a long time

but we’re really not that close…

I really feel nervous right now…

I don’t know what would be the reaction of my ULTIMATE CRUSH!

well…

I hope she understands that…

and for all people who experiences this case…

my advice to you is to HOLD THE NECK OF YOUR FRIEND!!…

hahahaha…

well that’s all for now…

I’ve hoped for change
it gets better everyday
I’ve hoped for change
but still I feel the same
there’s something wrong
cause everybody knows
that we can do this all alone

and we got everybody singing
whoa whoa oh whoa whoa oh
and we got everybody singing
whoa whoa oh whoa whoa oh

were doing fine
and it gets better every time
were doing fine
but ill let you decide
there’s something wrong
cause everybody knows
that we can do this all alone

and we got everybody singing
whoa whoa oh whoa whoa oh
and we got everybody singing
whoa whoa oh whoa whoa oh

and ill confess
that I can be a little selfish
yeah ill admit 
I don’t want you to help me through this
I don’t want to start over again

and we got everybody singing
and we got everybody singing
whoa whoa oh whoa whoa oh
and we got everybody singing
whoa whoa oh whoa whoa oh

and ill confess
that I can be a little selfish
I can I can
yeah ill admit
I don’t want you to get me through this
I don’t want to start over again

“…I hate myself for loving you… you lied to me… you betrayed me… I did everything to make this relationship work out… but you made it very worthless in your heart… how I wish you would be happy from what you’ve done and how I wish that you could find your next victim for your USELESS LOVE…Thank you for entering into my life, because you taught me that I’M REALLY WORTHLESS IN YOUR EYES….”

These are the words that I’ve said when I ended up in a relationship with the person I LOVE A LOT… I was fooled by her… 

I ended up hurting myself… cutting my veins with a razor

Using the blade to draw her initial in my hands…

and lastly hurting myself just for this stupid and F*CKING LOVE!

I really don’t wanna love someone again…

I hope that she is happy right now from what she have done….

I guess… I was really not the PERFECT GUY for her…